I often feel the same way. In fact, I cut my arms viciously a few years ago right along the artery in my wrist, just hoping that I would "accidentally" knick it and end it all.
Wow :( I'm really sorry to hear both of you say all of that. But please don't feel embarrassed... we are all humans and all feel a range of emotions (some just feel a wider range, and feel emotions much more strongly than others).
Personally, I've never felt suicidal so I can't tell you "I know how it feels" but I've been through my fair share of troubled times and even though in the moment it can feel overwhelming and like you're losing your mind I just want you to know that it does get better.
Even though you're a complete stranger, as soon as you said that, I knew I had to say something because I cared about you (yeah, even though I don't know you). Why? Because I'm sure that you are special--everyone is in their own way. Everyone is special and unique in their own way. And I am sure that you're special to someone(s) too and you're right, it would hurt them so much because they LOVE you. You're loved. Don't ever forget that.
I know this world can feel lonely sometimes. And sometimes you might feel that darkness creeping in, but don't let it get to you.
I'm really glad you shared your thoughts and feelings. Both of you. Don't hold them in. Tell the people that care about and love you. Darkness is just the absence of light.. even depression can be treated. You just have to take the first step.
Is it even worth it to try if you know you're going to fail? I always seem to be having a hard time with everything. I was directed here by another resident who recommended sharing my secrets. I wonder if it will help me? I feel sick. Life is better in SL.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to take my own life. I dream about it. the darkness consuming my soul.
ReplyDeleteI imagine the noose.. then I cry myself to sleep.
The only threads keeping me here is the fact that I know it would be selfish and harmful to other people to do it.
I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone about this.. it sort of feels good (scary, but good) to admit it.
I often feel the same way. In fact, I cut my arms viciously a few years ago right along the artery in my wrist, just hoping that I would "accidentally" knick it and end it all.
DeleteWow :( I'm really sorry to hear both of you say all of that. But please don't feel embarrassed... we are all humans and all feel a range of emotions (some just feel a wider range, and feel emotions much more strongly than others).
DeletePersonally, I've never felt suicidal so I can't tell you "I know how it feels" but I've been through my fair share of troubled times and even though in the moment it can feel overwhelming and like you're losing your mind I just want you to know that it does get better.
Even though you're a complete stranger, as soon as you said that, I knew I had to say something because I cared about you (yeah, even though I don't know you). Why? Because I'm sure that you are special--everyone is in their own way. Everyone is special and unique in their own way. And I am sure that you're special to someone(s) too and you're right, it would hurt them so much because they LOVE you. You're loved. Don't ever forget that.
I know this world can feel lonely sometimes. And sometimes you might feel that darkness creeping in, but don't let it get to you.
I'm really glad you shared your thoughts and feelings. Both of you. Don't hold them in. Tell the people that care about and love you. Darkness is just the absence of light.. even depression can be treated. You just have to take the first step.
school is too hard. what's the point?
ReplyDeleteyou want it all? you better work work -- Love Brit Spears
DeleteIs it even worth it to try if you know you're going to fail? I always seem to be having a hard time with everything. I was directed here by another resident who recommended sharing my secrets. I wonder if it will help me? I feel sick. Life is better in SL.
ReplyDeleteagreed. SL is my escape place.
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